the blues

i know i haven't posted/commented in a while. but i think i am falling into depression. i am not a person that gets depressed often. actually the last time i even came close i was breaking up with the ex-fiancee. and that was more of an emotional breakdown. and before that, i can't remember ever really being depressed. i am an optimist by nature but something has happened to my mental state. i don't know what this is. i'm in a funk. i feel like i am just falling deeper and deeper and no matter how hard i try i can't bring myself out. like quicksand.. the harder i fight, the faster i sink. i am overwhelmed. i can't stop crying. even now. there's too much going on to even type but i will try to talk about it more later. for now, please pray for me.