Wednesday, May 31, 2006

another one of those thingies

Got this from Jenny

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
Car pmt/ car insurance
2. What's the best place to eat a romantic dinner?
at home
3. Last time you Puked from Drinking?(Details)
not for a while... maybe last year some time
4. When is the last time you got drunk and woke up in a strange place?
never
5. Name of your First Grade Teacher?
I skipped first grade... my second grade teacher's name was mrs. coleman
6. What do you really want to be doing right now?
sleeping or shopping
7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
a doctor
8.How many colleges did you attend before you settled on the one you graduated from?
uh.... I ain't graduate! heh heh heh
9. Why did you wear the shirt that you have on right now?
a white wifebeater looking tank... it looked cute with my shorts
10. Gas Prices! First Thought?
bullshizzle
11. If you could move anywhere and take someone with you where would it be and who would you take?
somewhere warm with an oceanview and I would take my puppies
12. First Thought When the alarm went off this morning?
dayum
13. Last thought before Falling asleep last night?
Him is so crazy
14. Favorite style of Underwear?
cotton low rise bikini cut from victoria's secret
15. Favorite style of Underwear for the opposite sex?
boxer briefs
16. What Errand/Chore do you despise?
I hate Dishes and mopping equally
17. If you didn't have to work would you?
hell to the nah
18. Sex or Sleep?
a lot of both... thanks
19. Your Favorite Cartoon Character?
Eeyore
20. Favorite non sexual thing to do at night with a girl/boy?
cuddle and conversate
21. A secret that you wouldn't mind everyone knowing?
I am addicted to cheez whiz
22. What was your First Car?
92 toyota celica
24. Your Favorite Lunch Meat?
boar's head tavern ham
25. What do you get every time you go into a WAWA?
money from the FREE atm.
26. Beach Or Lake?
Beach
27. Do you think Marriage is an outdated ritual that was invented by people who died at 20?
No
28. Who do you Stalk on myspace?
i don't do the myspace thing
29. Favorite Guilty Pleasure?
reality shows
30. Favorite Movie you wouldn’t want anyone to find out about.

31. What's your drink?
Kamikaze or vodka and red bull or jager(meister) and red bull or mojitos
32. Cowboys or Indians?
Indians
33. Cops or Robbers?
not cops... but not robbers either
34. Do you cheer for the bad guys?
most of the time
35. What Hollywood star do you think resembles you best?
uh.... none... maybe someone with freckles... I dunno but dee says I look like chicken little
34. If you had to pick one which cast member of Sex and the City would you be?
the one with all the fabolous manolo blahniks
37. What do you want when you are sick?
sleep and be babied
38. Who from High School would you like to run into?
MALIK WALLACE... heh heh heh
39. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?
dunno been listening to cd's
41. Stifler or Oz?
what the???
42. Norm or Cliff?
uh.....
43. The Cosby Show or the Simpsons?
The Cosby Show
44. Worst Relationship Mistake that you wish you could take back?
moving in with the fiancee
47. What Famous person would you like to have dinner with? Alive or Dead?
Jesus
49. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?
nope
50. Last book you read for real? ????
memoirs of a geisha
51. Do you have a teddy bear?
no... stuffed animals are evil...
54. How many times a day do you text?
about 3
55. at this point in your life would you rather start a new career or relationship?
both
56. Do you go to church?
faithfully
58. Describe your favorite Day?
sun is out, warm breeze, on a secluded beach sipping something frozen and yummy, not a care in the world
60.How many jobs have you had?
9
61. What would be your "dream job"?
being independently wealthy so I wouldn't need a job

62. What do you want to achieve in life?
to have a rewarding and satisfying career, and have a balanced, loving, God-fearing family, and to see a good amount of the world

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

how many burnt hotdogs can one person eat??

The weather in the Philly metro area was PERFECT this weekend... and confirmed what I knew all along... weather forecasters don't know ish!! The forecasters were saying it was going to rain on Friday and Saturday. never happened. I am glad though... I really got a chance to get out and enjoy the weekend. So Friday after work I went to a this place called Top Dog for happy hour... it was cool... nothing to brag about. Saturday, went to a BBQ at my friend Tadpole's house and that was really nice left there tipsy and went to see the new guy I've been dating. so I get to his apt and he says he doesn't want to go out because he does not go to the club with women he is seeing... and I am like okaaaaaaay why the hell not? and he says because he made a rule when he was 21 that he would NEVER go to a club with someone he is seeing ever again because of what happened back then. So I was a lil tipsy and you know alcohol will have you saying exactly what is on your mind and well... I did just that.
Me: Are you serious? Please tell me you are joking!!
Him: Yes I am serious. we are who we are based on our previous experiences and I made that decision based on what happened at that time and I have never gone back on that
Me: You mean to tell me you are 29 years old and you are still living by rules you made when you were 21?? I am 26 and I don't live by "rules" I made when I was 21. So what happened that was so traumatic?
Him: I don't want to talk about it.
Me: So you mean to tell me that I am gonna be suffering the repercussions of everything you've ever gone through with every other broad?
Him: When have I ever held the past against you b4?
Me: You are doing it now... who knows what the means for the future. I am not them girls, I am someone completely different. if you don't want to go that is fine but don't try to make it seem like it is because of some life lesson...
*my cell phone rings the t-mobile jingle* and it's my friend who happens to be a dude that was at the BBQ I had just come from.
Me: *answering phone* hey _____ did _____ (pink shoes girl) drop you off yet? I'm trying to see if she still wants to go out tonight.
*him in the background* Hey ______ (being EXTRA because he knew it was a guy)
Me: (to Him)Shut up please... thanks. (to person on the phone) anyway if you talk to (pink shoes girl) tell her to call me because this cornball who's house I'm at doesn't want to go because of some rule he made when he was 21.
Him: Why you got to put my business all out in the streets? how immature is that?? I was gonna go but now I am really not going.
Me: *hangs up with person on the phone then goes off* Are you effing kidding me?? You weren't going anywhere... you just sat here for 20 minutes telling me how you weren't going then all of a sudden you were gonna go but now you aren't going anymore.... yeah right. you are wack... I'm out
Him: alright have a good time...

So I left and SLAMMED the door behind me and he comes to the door like did you just slam my door.
Me: Yeah I slammed it and I will slam it again!!!
Him: Don't be slamming my door like you got a problem.
Me: Whatever

I left and I am driving to Mt. Laurel to pick up my friend to go with me. While I'm driving I get a call from Him asking if I was still mad at him so I said no I was just annoyed so we talked about it and all is well. anyway I ended up not getting to the club until 1:15 and clubs in Philly close at 2. but I did have fun for the few minutes I was there...

Sunday my aunt had a BBQ so I went over there after church... my aunt is one of those people that invite you over for a BBQ and ain't got NOTHING cooked. and you know negros be HONGREE after church... that was fun hanging witht he cousins and my parents came up from MD. other than that Sunday was boring....

Monday was cool... went to the church picnic and the food was pretty good... spent the whole day there and it was cool... then went over Him's house again and stayed over there... woke up LATE this morning but still made it into work on time... cuz I'm good like that.

oh yeah I have a wicked Ebay addiction... someone help me!

oh yeah again.... Him told me I was beautiful last night... awwwww compliments will get him far with me! LOL!

Friday, May 26, 2006

time to catch up

okay so let me rekindle my blog with what happened with the engagement. I was engaged to my right-after-high-school sweetheart. We were together from the time I was 17 until now... 8 and a half years later. we were supposed to be getting married this September... a chick done bought a dress and errything. well a few months after the engagement, the fiancee (lets call him hotsauce) started acting strange. By strange I mean very introspective, we lost our communication and we lost some of the spark just from falling into the routine of everyday life. I would try to talk to him and see what was on his mind but he would always answer with a "nothing" or "i'm fine". Finally, it got to the point where I just straight out asked him was he ready to get married and I told him I would understand if he wasn't. But he insisted that he was and that he wanted to marry me so we continued with our plans. The next thing that started happening is some random chick kept calling him... now I like to be a trusting person so i didn't think too much of it. We were having small problems but nothing worth breaking up over so I realized there must have been something bigger under the surface. I tried talking about what I was feeling to no avail. Now womens' intuition is real and I am not stupid but I didn't want to believe that our 8 year relationship was over just because Hotsauce needed to see what else was out there but it was. the thing that finally pushed me to leave, is that one day I paid the electric bill and when I checked our joint balance, we were short by like $100 so I asked him about it and he WENT OFF on me... when I say went off I mean WENT OFF basically accusing me of stealing "his" money. Now I was so hurt because #1 I am not a thief and 2 he is a teacher so I covered all the bills all by myself at least two months out of the year when he wasn't getting a regular check. So how could he come at me over a budgeting mistake. I had to leave.... that was on top of everything else that was happening and I will not be direspected. so I left and stayed with my cousin thinking we just needed time apart to clear our heads and work things out. Now imagine the blow when I find out 10 days after I left he was dating the chick that was calling him. 10 days later. after 8 years together and with more than half my ish still in the house we bought together. then to rub salt in the wound he changed the locks but still wanted us to "date" to "find that spark again".... how about HELL TO THE MUTHA EFFIN NO! thanks. This was almost 3 months ago and I am starting to become accustomed to singledom... I am happy that all this happened now and not after we were married... but it still hurts. However, I have been dating a new gentleman who I like... we are taking it EXTREMELY slow because we both came out of bad breakups and don't want to rush into anything. There are some details missing out the story but that is the short and sweet of it. I am on to bigger and better things...

Thursday, May 25, 2006

wtf happened to my life??

I have always had a plan for my life... i knew where I would be and what I would be doing at any given age. I've been planning since the 8th grade. now 85% of the things I planned back then did not happen (go figure) but i still had a satisfying life. I was (yes WAS) engaged, had a decent job, friends, family.... a life. So since the last time I posted waaaaaaaay back in October, I am no longer engaged, basically homeless, me and my bestest friend diddy have parted ways (we'll call it irreconcilable differences for now) and Verizon is trying to play me on this sales gig I am trying to get. But strangely with all that, I am still happy, and looking forward to what the future holds... I feel like I am starting over. re-inventing myself. life is full of possibilities... but being single still sucks :o)
there is way too much to talk about to try to squeeze it all into this one post so I will go topic by topic... starting tomorrow! LOL!

First things first... me and my fellow pisces friend Dee had an 80's party for our b-day... it was lots of fun.. we made loot bags to give out and had a care bears cake!! I'll post pics when I find them...