Random is as random does

I AM FINALLY FINISHED TRAINING!!!!!!!!!! woo hooooooo!!! took my last test today and passed. I am so glad to finally be done with training.

but my joy is not complete because my baby (My dog Lily) was hit by a car on Monday and died. my mom buried her for me and planted a flower bush over the grave... my insensitive ass cousins laughed at me for crying but she was really like my child and I miss her immensely. eff you if you don't understand.

My ex-friend Diddy (the chick with me in this funny ass incident) is crazy... well she is crazy for a lot of reasons but mainly because she moved to maryland with the dude she met on the internet (black planet of all places) and well I worry about her.

so I have decided to take a break on the whole dating thing. I am convinced that the philly metro area has NO available normal men my age so I am gonna chill and just see what happens. I am not brave enough or beat enough to try internet dating sooooooo I'll be happily single.

bytches are haters... so two girls in my training class apparently had a problem with me but couldn't tell me what it was. I asked them point blank and the one (who is 32 btw) was like oh let me think... WTF??? if you got beef with me what do you have to think about? to this day I don't know what their problem was so I chalk it up to jealousy. jealous of what? well I dunno... you can't really tell from this blog but I have a very BIG..... personality (LOL) and i guess some people misunderstand me. now the important thing is that I really don't give a damn. I just thought it was amusing that these broads were talking to me planning a shopping trip one day and then hating on me the next. whatever... I'm used to being hated on and it is usually by people that have their own issues. punkasses

I might be going to jail *smh*... those of u that read this back in the day when I actually updated regularly may remember my numeroud traffic court problems... well they are back.. same ish, different municipality! LOL! one of the few that I haven't been to in south jersey... humph.

ooooooh the MAC store in my local mall had some private shopping event that I got an invite to and the invite said FREE cocktails so I had to go! I was allowed to bring a guest so I brought my sometimes friend (pink shoes/scrabble girl) and we drank up they liquor! LOL! but I did get a Mahogony liner and Decorative Lustreglass. and some pigment I forget the name of but it is part of their new colors and it is hot to death.... I think I need to go out this weekend so I can wear it.

oh and WHY is VH1 giving New York her own show???? ANd more importantly WHY must I watch it! LOL! I am gonna hate myself but I must watch it!

men suck

man.... I had to retreat from the world for a minute. so yeah my ex-fiancee is still getting married (that bastid) and his BYTCH actually had the nerve to step to me like I did something wrong. well correction... she said something slick out her car window but would not get out her car when she realized I was going to bundle her punk @ss. the ex is officially a p-word and a hairless one at that!! but that is another story altogether.

other than that... 2 short and I are retarded. I really like him even though he gives me his @ss to kiss 50% of the time. he is ignorant as h-ll and I can't stand it. like seriously I can't stand it but I like the lil nig so it's hard for me to stay away. I hate being single.

I ran into my crush from 10th grade the other day... we exchanged #'s... went out twice... seemed to hit it off but then I haven't heard from him since. he might be back with his baby momma... who knows. that shyt is shady though... he could have at least called a biatch. so what does that mean? was us hitting it off all in my head? did I scare him off talking about the big crush I had on him?? who knows... I HATE DATING!! why do we have to play these games?? why why WHY... if you like me and I like you why can't we hang out, have fun, and be real. ARGH!

other whack ass dudes I met:
1- colored contacts... ok I meet this dude in a club and he is really attractive and seems to be an ok dancer... so we meet up a few nights later at a different club and lo and behold... he was wearing some dayum colored contacts... now call me shallow but that is a bit suspect. and he tried to be TOO DAYUM DEEP at 4 am at the diner. it ain't that serious homey. uhg. he gets no calls

2-norf jerzee... so I meet this dude at a wedding and he was cute-ish. really nice smile. his brother called me and told me he wanted to take me out so I said what the heck... why not. yeah this dude is a fibber... well he seemed like a fibber... that is no good. he is an artist and a darn good one at that but he was way too into me and way too touchy feely. i was in two words---> not beat

why can't I meet someone in my age group that is not crazy, no kids (or only one over 4 yrs old), decent job or at least aspirations to obtain a decent job, who doesn't feel like playing the dating games that everyone other than me seem to enjoy so much?? oh yeah, also must not be afraid of crazy jamaicans because that is my whole family.

LAWD HELP ME!

*I am still homeless...
*i am stalked by losers and cornballs
*the dude i actually like has a phd in asshole-nomics and hurts my feelings at least once a week (albeit unintentionally 90% of the time but still)

argh