BIG UP TO ALL MY HATERS!

I have to start this post by addressing my haters. YES I am better than you. I'm cuter than you, I'm smarter than you, and most importantly, I have a little thing called a personality and self-esteem AND pride. go ahead and size me up... but do so knowing that you are only going to feel worse about yourself in the end.

thanks

okay now that that is out of the way...

it is hot as hell today. like seriously i woke up at 7 am and it was already 84 degrees. that is soooooooo uncalled for. and to make matters worse, my air conditioning is not working correctly. it is just barely cooling my apt. like it makes it comfortable as long as you are not moving around too much. I told the maintenance guy and it is supposed to be fixed today. if i go home and it's not... someone is going to get mollywhopped.

so i go to chicago this friday... i am excited. never been so i'm really looking forward to it. i am going to try my hardest not to get into any trouble while i am there... we'll see...

so one of my sis had a baby shower yesterday and my ex-friend diddy (the one who i had a big falling out with about 2 years ago) showed up. she actually paid me the balance of the money i owed her. I am still kind of in shock. i wasn't expecting it at all... especially since one of our last conversations i told her to just keep the money as long as she never talks to me again... lol. i'm glad she paid me though. i soooo needed that money right now.

i think i am going to costa rica in feb.... i hope no one kidnaps me and sells my organs on the black market. hmmmm

that's all for now.

TGIF!!!

one of the worse feelings, in my opinion, is that moment right after you take a sip of something and right before you swallow, you realize it's not your drink.... absolute torture. this happened to me a few months ago at a Phillies baseball game. we were tailgating in the parking lot... bbq-ing hot dogs and burgers and drinking beer. it was a beautiful day and a good time. i put my Corona on the trunk of a car to take a group picture...



then i go to the car and pick up a corona and take a nice healthy swig... and realized mid-swig, "this shit ain't mine!"
my throat locked down on me... i couldn't swallow and was busy looking for somewhere to spit it out that wouldn't completely gross out my friends... and someone snapped a pic of me looking crazy...



i finally found somewhere to spit and i had a slight panic moment until i found out is was my friends and then everything was ok. i mean i don't make it a habit to drink after people but i was relieved is was my friend and not some random yuck-mouth...

it's supposed to be hot as the dickens in the philly metro area this weekend. i am soooo not looking forward to it...

maybe i'll post something else later...

the song i have on repeat on my ipod right now is Jazmine Sullivan "Break My Little Heart"

pretty random

i had the most bogus dream last night. i have all these trips coming up and i think i am starting to get travel anxiety or something. anyway, in my dream, i was at the airport and was at the wrong gate had to haul it to the right place and the plane was about to leave me. then we land and i go to baggage claim and i have the wrong suitcase. there is all this humidity and my hair turned into a poofball... then i get to the hotel and i didn't pack anything useful... like i forgot all my hair stuff and face stuff... no toothbrush. i was soooooo annoyed int he dream. so i woke up and made a list of things i need to make sure i pack... trip number one to chicago for my friends graduation is in 8 days... then i come home for two weeks and get right back on a plane for 4th of july weekend, then i come home for another two weeks and am off to disney world.

so i guess it's time for a crush update... everything is.. well... swell. it's still int he gooey sweet stage and i am loving every second of it. so far this dude seems to encompass what i have been looking for. still new though, so we'll see what happens...
isn't weird when you spend time with someone new and it's like who the heck did i talk to b4 i met you? i honestly can't remember when this person was not in my world and it's not that long ago... just seems like he's been there forever... weird

i can't wait for the weekend, i don't really have anything planned but it will be 2 whole days i don't have to go to work...

some random ponderings (from discussions last night):
sode or pop? (i say soda)
hoagie or grinder or sub? (hoagie)
caramel pronounced car-a-mel or car-mul? (carmul)
caribbean pronounced ca-rib-BE-an or ca-RIB-be-an?

sometimes i think i am retarded

so, my passat has been out of commission due to an engine problem and i have been borrowing my little brothers truck. now his truck is like a 95 explorer... old and loud and just doesn't look like anyone should really be driving it. that's not why i'm retarded though... why i am retarded is because... well... let me explain it like this...

so i took the truck to my parents' house so my bro could replace the brakes for me. he ended up being outside for a while messing with the radio, checking the oild and what not. he comes in the house and said he is all done. i go outside to leave and lo and behold the air conditioning is on blast.
so i say "hey (brother), you fixed the air too??"
and he says, "Uh yeah... i fixed it like last year."
so i said, "are you serious?"
and he said, "yeah. you didn't know the air worked?"
me,"NO! SO I'VE BEEN DRIVING AROUND IN A HOT ASS CAR AND THE AIR WORKED ALL THIS TIME?!?!?"
him, "you didn't try it?"
me, "heck no, i just assumed it didn't work so why bother..."

THAT is why i feel retarded! LOL! i mean seriously, why the heck didn't i just try the air to see if it worked. i'm slow sometimes...

so i was reading somewhere that doodles have meanings... like what you doodle has some correlation to personality traits or something... i dunno. but i tend to doodle the same things repeatedly... lips, eyes, hearts, flowers, and my name... dumb stuff. i wonder what, if anything, that means about me?? hmmm
here is a page from a pad i doodle in at work... pretty boring ( i took the pics my phone so they are dark). anyone care to psycho-analyze?